hey, you've got to hide your love away

There's really nothing quite like the feeling of having a crush on someone. Your heart skips a beat when you accidentally (or not-so-accidentally) touch or your cheeks flush when he says your name. The excitement of wondering when you'll see him again is reason enough to get through the day.
After this stage, things have the tendency to get complicated.
But the crush, oh the crush is a wonderful thing. So fresh, so new.
Unless it's not new.
What if this crush has caught you completely by surprise?
Say this person, this man, who you once had a crush on is now a great friend (who admittedly you don't spend enough time with. Months pass, and then, on a winter's day you run into him in some lunchtime establishment, and you find yourself giving him a hug. Completely normal, right?
A week later, you spot him online on the internet and feel compelled to say hello to this old friend. The conversation is pleasant and you decide to go see a movie (the sappiest of sappy sad romantic movies that inevitably make you cry). This friend/former crush comforts you, rubs your arm, then all of a sudden you're holding hands. The act in itself is quite innocent, it's what happens inside of you.
All of the heart flutters are back, but it's different this time. You don't have a crush on what you think this person might be, you have a crush on this person you know well.
Spending time is comfortable and somehow newly exciting. And you second-guess your feelings because it would be absolutely crazy to feel this way again. Seriously. Seriously.
It doesn't make any sense...

well blogosphere, in case you didn't figure it out, the you in this scenario is me.

Happy (completely commercial and overrated) Valentine's Day.